Monday, April 26, 2010

Jared Leto,

i just realized my insane love for jared leto.
i didn't even realize it, but he's in one of my all time favorite series'.
My So-Called Life.
He was also in Requiem for a Dream. dlfjad;lfkd
Oh, and Girl, interrupted.
And he's the lead singer of 30 Seconds to Mars. They sing Kings and Queens; and I had no freaking idea. I feel so ignorant.
Anyways, I love him. Like, freaking crazy.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Monday, April 19, 2010

i miss you

don't waste your time on me.

i miss blogging daily. all it means is that shit's getting worse.
as pathetic and depressing as that sounds.
i need to buy new tennis shoes.
i refuse to call them sneakers.
i got a bikini from target and almost puked, because i absolutely hate target.
myrtle beach in 3/4 days. waste of money; but it'll be fun to get some beach time in.
i can't wait to be tan.
wow, this post sounds pathetic. i'm disappointing myself.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

just a little

"Life is a riddle, I wish I had the answer for
Love breaks your heart, to teach you to be strong
I die, just a little, so I can live a little bit more"

Myrtle Beach in 5 days. I'm excited, but I need to get in shape.
I've lost 7 pounds this week: aka all the weight I gained over Spring Break. And a little extra.
I'm going for jogs after I walk the dogs, it's going pretty well. I need to work on actually working out afterwards though...gah lazy.
So, my relationship with my mother is gone. Currently I don't care and neither does she.

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

i want to achieve

so i definitely went on about a thirty minute rant on how i feel i'm not being granted my right to an education, or really, the opportunity to a BETTER education.
All in all I had this WTF moment/realization where my thought process was;
Why the hell am I here/I can't redo this whole life/growing up/college/high school thing/etc/etc/etc.
hopefully tomorrow i can actually tell the teacher/staff/principle my thoughts and get it all out in the way i'm planning, (and not chicken out or wish i had said more.)
i'm going to go eat food.
i'm exhausted from being lazy. yep, it's definitely possible, as i believe i've previously stated in older posts.

Thursday, April 1, 2010


i've been sick for three days now and spring break just started. wtfff
i'm going to pittsburgh with nancy and devii in two days. i still need to get some shopping done AND most importantly i makeup work in...alskdfjaskdjas;ldfj