Sunday, August 8, 2010

Saturday, June 26, 2010

i need cloths

i didn't drop the damn science class while i had the chance. now i may or may not fail or pass.
the fucking dryer is still broken and nobody's done laundry in an entire fucking week so nobody could tell me? what the hell. bull shit. why am i not typing in complete sentences anymore? there.....fuck.
grandma's in town. along with my uncle marty and his girlfriend cindy.
this is fun.

Monday, June 21, 2010

i miss my HSK shuffler and he doesn't even know it. like, i sincerely need him at times. fuck.
i haven't had any sleep for the past two weeks. i wake up at least 2 times in the middle of the night.
i woke up to my house smelling like weed this morning. wtf.
it's 4:30 already and i haven't done shit.

Thursday, June 17, 2010

into the night, desperate and broken


just got back from the beach. 4 days 5 nights.
my toe nails are purple.
i got a shirt. i have NO money. i hate that feeling.
i have no interest in typing long sentences. (damn)
i need to fix my computer.
waking up in 7 hours. i make that sound like it's not enough sleep.

fuck online classes.
fuck olympic high's school system. whatever.


Tuesday, May 18, 2010


i've been working a lot. i don't mind.
my computer doesn't charge anymore. again?

been listening to the mountain goats a lot. love.

Sunday, May 9, 2010


should not have eaten those wings.
long weekend; worked all of it.
3 days until the AVA concert.
hell yeah.

Saturday, May 1, 2010

oh, this is my best friend and i


i've been working since wednesday, everyday. so my schedule has been; school, drivers ed (yeahyeah), and then work until 9, and sometimes walking dogs afterwards. so, obviously no homework has been getting done. but i did get a 4 on my practice eoc.
la;jfld, i'm proud, but i really do hope i get a four.
i might make a tumblr, not that i'd be leaving blogspot, but idk
i'll probably just make one, and end up deleting it. we'll see. i love you blogspot, i'lll try and post more often.

Monday, April 26, 2010

Jared Leto,

i just realized my insane love for jared leto.
i didn't even realize it, but he's in one of my all time favorite series'.
My So-Called Life.
He was also in Requiem for a Dream. dlfjad;lfkd
Oh, and Girl, interrupted.
And he's the lead singer of 30 Seconds to Mars. They sing Kings and Queens; and I had no freaking idea. I feel so ignorant.
Anyways, I love him. Like, freaking crazy.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Monday, April 19, 2010

i miss you

don't waste your time on me.

i miss blogging daily. all it means is that shit's getting worse.
as pathetic and depressing as that sounds.
i need to buy new tennis shoes.
i refuse to call them sneakers.
i got a bikini from target and almost puked, because i absolutely hate target.
myrtle beach in 3/4 days. waste of money; but it'll be fun to get some beach time in.
i can't wait to be tan.
wow, this post sounds pathetic. i'm disappointing myself.

Sunday, April 18, 2010

just a little

"Life is a riddle, I wish I had the answer for
Love breaks your heart, to teach you to be strong
I die, just a little, so I can live a little bit more"

Myrtle Beach in 5 days. I'm excited, but I need to get in shape.
I've lost 7 pounds this week: aka all the weight I gained over Spring Break. And a little extra.
I'm going for jogs after I walk the dogs, it's going pretty well. I need to work on actually working out afterwards though...gah lazy.
So, my relationship with my mother is gone. Currently I don't care and neither does she.

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

i want to achieve

so i definitely went on about a thirty minute rant on how i feel i'm not being granted my right to an education, or really, the opportunity to a BETTER education.
All in all I had this WTF moment/realization where my thought process was;
Why the hell am I here/I can't redo this whole life/growing up/college/high school thing/etc/etc/etc.
hopefully tomorrow i can actually tell the teacher/staff/principle my thoughts and get it all out in the way i'm planning, (and not chicken out or wish i had said more.)
i'm going to go eat food.
i'm exhausted from being lazy. yep, it's definitely possible, as i believe i've previously stated in older posts.

Thursday, April 1, 2010


i've been sick for three days now and spring break just started. wtfff
i'm going to pittsburgh with nancy and devii in two days. i still need to get some shopping done AND most importantly i makeup work in...alskdfjaskdjas;ldfj

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Saturday, March 27, 2010


weekend. again. but productive. and not to pushy?
wow. tired. goodnight. lol.

Wednesday, March 24, 2010 i guess i'll answer truthfully today

Tuesday, March 23, 2010

tension headaches

my headaches are getting worse and worse. i do believe that's a sign.
bed early. possibly. if i ever get off of here.
fuck this.

you're not your job.
you're not how much money you have in the bank.
you're not the car you drive.
you're not the contents of your wallet.
you're not your fucking khakis.
you're the all-singing, all-dancing crap of the world.

Sunday, March 21, 2010


This weekend was absolutely amazing.
Friday, I went home with my best friend after school.
We met Mormons who tried to convert us, but we ended up telling jokes about "Can I have your numba?" We ate Chinese and cried from laughter.
We went to the lake and skipped rocks and flung them with slingshots.
we climbed trees and cried some more.
I fell into a hole and busted my knee. So much fun.
I worked Saturday, 1-6:30, and got ready in a 15 minutes and still managed to pull together a decent outfit. Then I went to the Danish-Going-Away-Party. It was a complete blast. I met some of the best people.
amazing weekend

Tuesday, March 16, 2010

early morning blogs

it's really not that early, because technically it's 5:30.
pointless clock changing day.
wtffffff, i just drank like, month old milk.
yes. that will happen today.
i need to find another good book to read. I just finished one by sarah dessen,
in like, a week. NOT my personal best.
I've decided that I reallllyyy want to go on the Denmark trip?
or the Europe trip this summer. So,...yeah.
Spring Break is coming up. 3 weeks? So like, 13 school days or something.
I'm excited. I'm going to Pittsburgh with my two best friends. Nancy and Devii. <3
My laundry is currently drying. LAME. Alright.

Monday, March 15, 2010 because i'm self absorbed on mondays

Thursday, March 11, 2010


oh. my. god. danish exchange students came to my school today. and are here for another week.
i've fallen in love. and i want them all.

Sunday, March 7, 2010

Saturday, March 6, 2010


cheetos cheaters cheetahs

i'm done. throwing away shit i don't ever and will never wear or need again.
hopefully donating it so i don't feel like shit about myself. i just want to be organized again so i can start fresh again. i can't stay in the same skin for too long. hence the reason i dye and cut my hair. and go through mood swings. and wear makeup. it's because i'm sick. i just can not stop moving. even when i'm sluggishly lying in bed until 2 o'clock on saturday's, i'm moving. or am i? either way. get me out of this clock before the minute hand crushes me.


i'm a walking contradiction

Wednesday, March 3, 2010 askkkk ask askk

miiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiixxxxxxed sigggnnnnnallllll

I am bored with my life

Falling Slowly

So I'm both sick and "sick" today.
My phone's restricted. So I can only text my mother.
I feel like I haven't put my heart into my blogs in a while.
Here I am. I think I'm back again.
No, like, back back. I'm about to pick up a book for the first time.
Possibly Maureen Johnson's 13 Little Blue Envelope's, something simple and quick. Then I'll finish my Sarah Dessen novels, along with the Tao Chi of Pooh.
Right now though, I'm catching up on yesterday's episodes of Greek, Make it or Break it, and The Secret Life of the American Teenager. (NOT SO SECRET..)
Then I'm going to watch Rudy.
And clean my room. And hook up the printer to my computer again,
and print out my missing course work.
Sounds like a plan. Motivation kick in......


Oh, and I've fallen (pun unintended) with this song.

I think I'll watch Once also, sometime today.

Sunday, February 28, 2010


because it's the first word that popped in my head whenever i thought of 'title'?
so, i'm definitely feeling,....lazy.
but i'm proving my horoscope wrong today.

Tuesday, February 23, 2010


going for one
for the first time in a while.
then birthday dinner, sushi.

Wednesday, February 17, 2010


the internet is getting boring lately
i'm going to go do something with my life for a bit


I'd feel like I have no soul for leaving you, Blogger, for Tumblr.
I had one before you....Just sayin'.

Aris passed away this morning. I know it's hit me, but I don't know how hard.

Tuesday, February 16, 2010


i'm up late not sleeping
i'm scared for tomorrow, i don't really know if i can handle it.
i hope everybody else can though. i just kind of want to give everybody all the courage and stuff i have inside me so they can make it through tomorrow. i can't sleep. hence the blogging. i should just rename this blog something that has to do with insomnia; that's really the only time i ever blog. it's upsetting.

This song brings back so many memories.
The Heart Never Lies - McFly
Pay day was today.
I actually got a decent check. Maybe two weeks from now I can get another one, and actually buy a phone. Or I could start a credit card? I have no idea how to do any of that. I need my mom, but she's never around. I mean, she's around. I just don't try hard enough. I'm a professional at getting off topic.
I guess I'll try to sleep.
Holy shit I just kicked a hanger off my bed. It scared the living shit out of me. It might not have been a hanger. That was fucking loud.

Monday, February 15, 2010

animal crackers

Not a lot has been up lately; other than me waiting for the weekends to get a break, then I realize I work Friday and Saturday nights. But work is better than nothing. I at least feel productive.
Everybody's getting in and out and back in relationships; I do believe it's become a peeve of mine. You can either work out your problems, deal with them, or settle them. Once or twice. Not 12 times. Clearly there's a reason you broke up in the first place.
Then again, there's a reason you got back together..
I still have no phone, I dropped it in the toilet.
I'm excited for today, even though I have no idea what's going on. I have no homework, that's a plus. But now I actually have time to do all the other crap I haven't had time to do because of homework. Next time, I'll just hope for homework..
Skins is getting better, I'm falling in love with this season.

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Monday, February 8, 2010

glass in my hands

i don't think i've ever had one of those dreams before where it like, completely changes everything. like, it's just one of the coolest things ever.
but yeah, i definitely just had one. and holy fuck.

Sunday, February 7, 2010


I need a new phone. I want the HTC Touch Pro 2.
I cleaned my room. I'm fucking hungry, I want to get out of the house.
nownownow. my posts are so unintersting nowadays.
I need new hair. Hmmmmmmmmmm

Saturday, February 6, 2010

Thursday, February 4, 2010

Hey whats up? I find your blog pretty interesting!

oh read my blog? lmao. thank you.

ask me anything,

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

since when do you drink?

Since I was 21,

ask me anything,

you are a million shades of awesome, romantic and realism.


ask me anything,


was one of the best days i've had in a long time

Monday, February 1, 2010

gimme five! *high five*

-power high five-
fist bump too?

ask me anything,

what college you going to next year?

Well I'm definitely only a sophomore. But I want to go to Michigan State. That'll probably change in a week.

ask me anything,

top three career choices?

Orthopedic Surgeon, Storm Chaser, Real estate Agent.

ask me anything,

Saturday, January 30, 2010

Tuesday, January 26, 2010

How's that job Jess got you for Christmas?

LC's, it's pretty awesome. 'Nuff said.

ask me anything,

Monday, January 25, 2010


semester tomorrow...

Sunday, January 17, 2010

your past glory does not excuse your present guilt

i'm watching underworld.
i'm addicted to weird movies.
i'm so tired.
i'm ready to kick some ass.
i'm going to show what i'm worth.
i'm done worring.
i'm over you.
i'm starting to be me again.

okay that was almost unintentional.

Saturday, January 9, 2010


crosby = score

watching the pens game. crosby just scored.
sometimes i want to marry him. just because his name is sydney crosby.

yesterday was a very long day. i had fun though. i finally got to see my bestfriend.
i ate a shit ton of fish today. that sounds gross. but it was with really good Italians bread..
home tonight. busy day tomorrow cleaning my room and doing laundry and everything.
this was an uninteresting post.

Thursday, January 7, 2010

(almost) Friday, January 8th, 2010

I started my new job today! At a pizza place. Little Caesar's. It's pretty cool. I think I'll get used to it. I just need better black shoes+pants. And a lint roller.
I have a feeling my life is going to get really complicated soon. I'm losing everything. It sucks. But, since I'm saying that, it's just going to continue to happen. It's fine. It's all good.
I still need to clean my room.
Maybe I won't do anything Saturday? Or tomorrow. Take another weekend off. I guess that's fine. It's not like I'd be wanted wherever I went anyways. Argh. Lol.
It's fine, it's fine.
Life goes on. I guess, I'm starting a new chapter?
I already feel like,...older. It kind of sucks.
I think I'm growing up to fast. One day I'm just going to get hit in the face with a wall. Like, I'm not allowed to grow up that fast. There's a limit to what age you can feel like, when you're at a certain age?
okay, done. going to sleep.

Wednesday, January 6, 2010

Wednesday, January 6th, 2010

Going to have sushi dinner with Jess later.
I'm wearing my minnetonka's today. idgaf.
i hope nobody says anything about the holes though. xO
yes, that face was necessary.
Let's get this day goinnng. I think I might sleep in first period.
Or third. Or fourth. Not second. Actually, that's probably the only class I will fall asleep in.
I need to clean my room.

[] clean room

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Tuesday, January 5th, 6:39

I'm up again. (:
early enough to attempt to look good.
I want to cut my hair, I mean, really, I just want to change things up.
But I want a bob. Then I want my hair to grow back, just because I wanted to see/feel how a bob looks. Lol.
I better not run out of hot chocolate any time soon.
Dinner tonight! It's going to be fabulous. (:
Even though I have no idea who with, where, etc., it's going to be spectacular.
So is this day.
Let's go!

Monday, January 4, 2010

Monday, January 4th,

I woke up so early I even have time to blog.
Okay, well, I'm going to be late now.

Sunday, January 3, 2010

If you could date any celebrity, who would it be?

honestly, probably zach efron. at one point i thought, ew, zach efron, everybody likes this guy, then one day it actually hit me. i just,...get him now.

ask me anything,



i'm going to get a system down. i'm going to start doing all the shit i've always said i was going to do. it'll be exhausting.
since, in my head, i'm finding reasons to be pissed off at my family memembers, i thought i'd know how peeved i am that jessika asked to wear my new work shirt. and i didn't even get to wear it. so now i have her two smalls, and she has my medium.
she's a mass manipulater. whatever.
time to do my hair and makeup, clean my room, organize my cloths,
(oh, and another thing, a few days ago my mom said, "we'll get you some furniture tomorrow." she said it several times actually.)
but whatever. i'll freaking deal.
then i'll do my math homework. it's weird actually think about doing math homework, in the day time? yeah. and then, i'll walk the dogs, and work out, and drink two liters of water today. and be IN bed, ready to sleep, by 9:45/10.
let's get to it! tons to do.

Friday, January 1, 2010

Sherlock Holmes

I just watched it. It was just as fantastic as I expected it to be.
RDJR., never lets me down.

I am about to enjoy a hot cup of hot chocolate, and do my math homework.
Then, I'll be getting a nice shower, and to bed early, I'll be going.
(I hate/love how I said that.)
I may or may not turn my phone off, and the order of the above, may or may not change.
I'm starting this year off selfishly, the way I want to.

Oh. And,